This too shall pass.
Happy New Year 2006!
It certainly was a tough year. I'm certainly glad it is behind me. My future seems bright. My hopes are high. What will come?
I finally took a break. Yes... I stole alway for a day and a half. I certainly needed it, that is for damn sure. I spent New Years with my other half laughing and talking about various girly things. Sometimes I would be startled by my own laugh because it feels like I had buried it so deep inside for so long. Emotions have run very high in this house I no longer really call home. I finally took a step in the right direction.... music will be next.
I guess I'm generalizing what has been going on. Things have hit bottom around here. I'm starting to vocalize what I want now. And I'm no longer taking no for an answer. I should be doing twentysomething things in my twenties. I don't want to be fourty before I'm 25!!!!
I've been crying on the inside for so long, that it finally came out. I'm facing it... all of it. I need to move on.
Everyone who knows me knows that I don't care about New Year's resolutions. It really isn't my cup of tea. The majority of the time it is something you feel obligated to do because your bestfriend swore she would go to the gym everyday or lose 50lbs. So, When people ask you what your resolution is, typically you answer with something you really haven't though about or care to deeply about. At least that is my prior experience.
Today is the beginning of the rest of my life. I want to be happy. I want to be successful. I want to be proud of who I am. I'm tired of waiting for things to fall into my lap. I want to make things happen. I'm sick and tired of complaining. Sick of IT! Who the hell wants to listen to my negativity? Why should I complain when I should be grateful for the things that have happened. I never would have known...
We wonder about things. I wonder, what if? All of my what ifs have been answered. What would happen if I gave more? What would happen if my mother died? What would happen if I had to take care of a sick person 24/7? What if I felt like I had the weight of the world on my shoulders? What would happen if... So many things have happened. SO many questions have been answered.
I feel like I've had to grow up suddenly.... I went from being 24 to being 60.
I am more lost than ever before, but at least I know I can begin again.
It certainly was a tough year. I'm certainly glad it is behind me. My future seems bright. My hopes are high. What will come?
I finally took a break. Yes... I stole alway for a day and a half. I certainly needed it, that is for damn sure. I spent New Years with my other half laughing and talking about various girly things. Sometimes I would be startled by my own laugh because it feels like I had buried it so deep inside for so long. Emotions have run very high in this house I no longer really call home. I finally took a step in the right direction.... music will be next.
I guess I'm generalizing what has been going on. Things have hit bottom around here. I'm starting to vocalize what I want now. And I'm no longer taking no for an answer. I should be doing twentysomething things in my twenties. I don't want to be fourty before I'm 25!!!!
I've been crying on the inside for so long, that it finally came out. I'm facing it... all of it. I need to move on.
Everyone who knows me knows that I don't care about New Year's resolutions. It really isn't my cup of tea. The majority of the time it is something you feel obligated to do because your bestfriend swore she would go to the gym everyday or lose 50lbs. So, When people ask you what your resolution is, typically you answer with something you really haven't though about or care to deeply about. At least that is my prior experience.
Today is the beginning of the rest of my life. I want to be happy. I want to be successful. I want to be proud of who I am. I'm tired of waiting for things to fall into my lap. I want to make things happen. I'm sick and tired of complaining. Sick of IT! Who the hell wants to listen to my negativity? Why should I complain when I should be grateful for the things that have happened. I never would have known...
We wonder about things. I wonder, what if? All of my what ifs have been answered. What would happen if I gave more? What would happen if my mother died? What would happen if I had to take care of a sick person 24/7? What if I felt like I had the weight of the world on my shoulders? What would happen if... So many things have happened. SO many questions have been answered.
I feel like I've had to grow up suddenly.... I went from being 24 to being 60.
I am more lost than ever before, but at least I know I can begin again.
posted by Jenn & John at 12:01 AM
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