my day, love, and chamber music
12 hour day- I should really get paid overtime for this shit!
I had a meeting at the hospital at 8am today. We're trying to get my mother into an acute rehabilitation center. The interview (yes, you have to interview for this) was fairly simple, yet she didn't get into the program. So, round 4 with the rehab starts tomorrow! Although we are just grateful she was accepted at all into any of these facilities... because who knew, my mother is a very DIFFICULT patient. So then we transfered her yet again this afternoon. I must say, at least it was somewhat entertaining... the EMTs were very flirtatious and good looking...
I'm looking forward to my trip down to so cal. I need to let loose a little... or a lot. People stress me out. But I shouldn't complain. My prayers were answered.
I was thinking about love today... Unconditional love. What is it? Is it staying rather than leaving? Even when you are so angry... and somehow find the strength within yourself to say, I'm sorry? Is it about hating your life at the moment, but finding the perfect moment within all the hell? Is it about holding a child who has been left virtually parentless, all the while singing to them until they fall asleep feeling secure and loved? Is it about letting go because you have respect for them not to fight with or hurt them anymore? I don't think I'll ever know.
I missed my favorite movie tonight.
I practiced for the first time in MONTHS yesterday. It felt great and my mind was so motivated. I worked mainly on double stops. I even got my old viola out. I've been having musical discussions with some people lately. It's driving me crazy. How can someone call themselves a musician when they known NOTHING about what music actually consists of? Its like saying you like to read, but only flip through books with pictures! Ah, at least know what you are talking about if you bring up the subject!
I did get in contact with a chamber musician from SF who is also a violist. He was very helpful and informed me that Chamber music majors perform with the faculty at least once a semester. How awesome would that be? I could imagine it now... Brahms piano quartet, schumann, Beethoven, Shostakovich!!!! I would fall in love. I would never put down my instrument. I would melt like a popsicle! That is a dream. AND... my childhood quartet buddies (the first violinist and second violinist) are getting married or may already be married! I can't believe it! It was only yesterday when they would flirt endlessly, especially on the trip to Europe... our quartet bought those silly hats that are so typical of Austrians... I should post the pic.. hmm, that would be cute.
I had a meeting at the hospital at 8am today. We're trying to get my mother into an acute rehabilitation center. The interview (yes, you have to interview for this) was fairly simple, yet she didn't get into the program. So, round 4 with the rehab starts tomorrow! Although we are just grateful she was accepted at all into any of these facilities... because who knew, my mother is a very DIFFICULT patient. So then we transfered her yet again this afternoon. I must say, at least it was somewhat entertaining... the EMTs were very flirtatious and good looking...
I'm looking forward to my trip down to so cal. I need to let loose a little... or a lot. People stress me out. But I shouldn't complain. My prayers were answered.
I was thinking about love today... Unconditional love. What is it? Is it staying rather than leaving? Even when you are so angry... and somehow find the strength within yourself to say, I'm sorry? Is it about hating your life at the moment, but finding the perfect moment within all the hell? Is it about holding a child who has been left virtually parentless, all the while singing to them until they fall asleep feeling secure and loved? Is it about letting go because you have respect for them not to fight with or hurt them anymore? I don't think I'll ever know.
I missed my favorite movie tonight.
I practiced for the first time in MONTHS yesterday. It felt great and my mind was so motivated. I worked mainly on double stops. I even got my old viola out. I've been having musical discussions with some people lately. It's driving me crazy. How can someone call themselves a musician when they known NOTHING about what music actually consists of? Its like saying you like to read, but only flip through books with pictures! Ah, at least know what you are talking about if you bring up the subject!
I did get in contact with a chamber musician from SF who is also a violist. He was very helpful and informed me that Chamber music majors perform with the faculty at least once a semester. How awesome would that be? I could imagine it now... Brahms piano quartet, schumann, Beethoven, Shostakovich!!!! I would fall in love. I would never put down my instrument. I would melt like a popsicle! That is a dream. AND... my childhood quartet buddies (the first violinist and second violinist) are getting married or may already be married! I can't believe it! It was only yesterday when they would flirt endlessly, especially on the trip to Europe... our quartet bought those silly hats that are so typical of Austrians... I should post the pic.. hmm, that would be cute.
posted by Jenn & John at 3:40 AM
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My definition(s) of unconditional love:
Accepting someone for who they are, the great aspects of their personality as well as their faults.
Giving to others without the thought of receiving anything in return.
I'm not sure what the fucking dictionary says.. (that would be interesting to see, wouldn't it? maybe I'll do that... but that's what it means to me....
AS
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