We don't choose who we fall in love with.

"You're gonna fall in love with me."

Who the hell says those kind of things and for what reason? ....and on the first date?! For most, they would run....run as far away as they could. For most.





I have accomplished so much in my life already, more than most people my age. So why does it feel like I'm starting from the bottom again? I'm asking myself many questions....what is it I really want? My dreams are scaring me lately. It isn't what I've been expecting.

I've considered myself to be a fairly strong person. I've dealt with a lot of crap in my short life and I've pulled through...with a good outlook on life. I'm determined. Determined to make happiness, to be happy.

This will work out.....but I'm not ready to let go yet and I don't know why. So much has happened since I've created MY OWN life. Actually it has created itself. I'm suppose to let all of that go now? Everything I use to know and do know. My friends, old and new....bestfriends. People who have known me inside and out. I suppose I'm not letting them go....but the everyday aspects of it.

That smile and that laugh......if you saw that grin and heard the happiness that pours out of him, you would fall in love too. You would move heaven and earth to see that smile again because there is nothing like it. Some people choose not to love, not to open that door. But why the hell not...if it can make u laugh or smile just once?