I dreamed a dream

I had a really long night last night. I think I hold it together pretty well most of the time. I HATE to bring my personal issues to work...but yesturday it happened and I lost it. It makes me feel weak. I like to be the one who takes care of things, not the one falling apart. I guess it all just builds up. I can only handle so much...and then I break. I guess we all do at one point or another. I just wish it never happened to me!

Sometimes I wish I could just say things. For some reason, it is more difficult to communicate with the ones that mean the most. AHHHHHHHH, if only...



"I dreamed a dream"-------------Les Miserables

There was a time when men were kind.
when their voices were soft
and their words inviting
there was a time when love was blind
and the world was a song
and the song was exciting
There was a time
then it all went wrong...


I dreamed a dream of time gone by
when hope was high and life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that god would be forgiving

Then I was young and unafraid
When dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
no song unsung, no wine untasted

But the tigers come at night
with their voices soft as thunder
as they tear your hope apart
as they turn your dream to shame

He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
he took my childhood in his stride
but he was gone when autumn came

And still i dream he'll come to me
and we'll live the years together
but there are dreams that cannot be
and there are storms that we cannot weather
I had a dream my life would be
so different from this hell im living
so different from what it seemed

Now life has killed the dream...

I dreamed



That song touches my heart. Maybe it is the melody....Oh man, can I really sing it though....singing it is almost theraputic...not so much the lyrics, but just being able to sing it as loud as I can.