Tchaikovsky

I've been unwinding to a bit of Tchaikovsky. I went out and bought a recording of his sixth symphony. Oh man.....wat a piece! I was pondering a few things while listening to it. I had this professor a few years back who talked about how he fell in love with this piece and how to this day, he can't listen to the forth movement of it. As the story goes, he proceded to tell us about how he was trying to woo this one woman in his earlier years. He planned this elaborate dinner at his place.....dinner by candle light and he put on Tchaik 6. Well, as their evening progressed the fourth movement came on and sparks apprently flew.....baadaabing baadaabang....now he cannot listen to the piece. You catch my drift? Ok, yes I agree this is a passionate piece of music. In fact, I would go so far as to say that I think it is his best work ever! HOWEVER, Tchaikovsky died 13 days after this piece premiered. No one really knows how he died....if you really listen to this piece, you can notice that all of the movements seem to be mixed up. Usually the sappy slow movement as I like to call it would be second and the symphony would end with a bang. But no. Tchaikovsky puts the big bang right smack in the middle. Furthermore, he leaves us with this sappy, what seems like it will never end movement. What is this about? I believe it was his farewell. He was telling us this was it....no more. I've read a few books about it and think that he couldn't bare to live anymore....probably took his own life. But im not sure. Ok, so back to the subject....my professor gets freaky to ths piece....Tchaikovsky sounds like he is dying? Ummmmmm........this sounds pretty damn sick. He is a twisted man. I prefer to think of it as heart wrenching.