Happy New Year 2005!

Well, we are down to it. The last day of 2004 has arrived. I have spent it working for the most part.

I had a ball last night. Went to a salsa dancing lesson with a friend and stayed later at the club to listen to some good music. It was mighty entertaining I must say. I got a dressed up and had a good time. The lesson was interesting though. I didn't think the instructor was very good though. He seemed to move really fast and if you didn't have a clue how to salsa dance, you were pretty much assed out. The surprising factor was there were too many men, so all of us women got passed around the dance floor. Many of the men had no clue what rhythm was. All the while, they proceded to tell me how to move. Very entertaining to say the least. The music was really good. The band played well together. I think the alcohol played a pretty large role that night also. The band did some pretty funny moves, so even if I wasn't dancing I was still enjoying every minute. I danced with several people. The older guys seemed to have the most confidence on the dance floor though. I think I might check this place out again sometime.

So the New year is coming up quicker than quick. I can't help but wonder what changes and events are in store for me. The last few weeks have changed my opinion on things going on in my life. I've been pondering many things. Are people really capable of change? And if so, how does one really know for sure? Is it to better their own interests? I think everyone has their own interests at heart, therefore it is much more difficult to tell if anyone is capable of this so called change. But I really don't know.......I think I will always wonder this. I've always had a difficult time with trust. Ok, maybe that is an understatement. It is difficult not to doubt people. There are so many that come and go in and out of our lives, people who have touched our lives in a way and yet, we don't have contact with them. I've lost touch with several friends from years ago....people who were honest and good hearted. I think that maybe a good thing though. I became slightly bitter about that for a while, but when you think if it in the long term aspect, we are influenced by many people. If we kept in touch with all of them, I think we would do circles around ourselves and get lost in everything and everyone. We are the people we are today because of who and what came into our lives in the past. From the events that have happened, to the people who make them happen, and on to the current being we are, I think most of us will say we are pretty happy with the place we are in. I certainly am. Yeah yeah, I'm not working at the greatest job and I should have some other job that pays more and be doing something in my field. But, I think all things happen for a reason. I've been given time. Time to figure out what to do in life....so I'm doing just that. Ha, who'd ever think I would be happy? Not I ....I always had this plan. I would get my bachelors in music performance, do a masters in viola performance and the get my doctorate and teach in the college level. According to my plan, I would have been half way done with my masters right now. So, my point being....no one knows anything. I certainly don't. I can't judge others anymore, only myself because I am the only one who will make me happy. So, I will continue on this unknown path into 2005 where everything has changed. Who woulda thunk I would ever try singing? Certainly not I. Could this be my path? I don't know, but I will try both for now. As for people changing.......I still don't know, but will try hard to believe in the good of people.

HAPPY NEW YEAR! Here's to a year full of laughter, love and hope!