The past.....and im moving on damnit!

The last two months have been very difficult for me. I had a wonderful relationship for two years. And about a month and a half before the relationship ended things just started growing apart. I wanted to work on it, but he couldn't anymore and that hurt quite a bit. I was in love with him and it was difficult not having him there anymore. I've learn so much and I am thankful for it. But I'm not going to look back anymore. What is in the past, is in the past. I'm moving on whether you all like it or not. In fact, I realized that last night as I sat in the car with my friend Lans outside my apartment. It was late, oh I'd say about 11pm. It was after I had that performance at the college. I will not be bitter, nor will I be angry. It is not possible to hate either. I could never hate anyone, not even my own father who has cause so much hurt to everyone he has encountered. I can sure as hell stay away from them and never look back though. And that is what I am trying to do, move on. There is so much out there to experience and do. So many laughs to have and other people's company to enjoy. Life is full of good things that are just waiting to happen if you just open your eyes and crawl out of your box. I'm finally coming out of that cell and becoming the person I always knew I could be. I hold my head up high because I am honest and truthful with everyone and I dont have anything to hide. It still hurts to see the person you once thought you would spend the rest of your life with, but it get easier. It sure as hell didn't hurt last night when I stood 3 feet from him. I'm well, happy and moving on. I wish all of you well and all of the happiness you deserve (and that is NOT sarcastic).

Ever seen an angry person eat an ice cream cone? Ever seen an angry person singing along to Christmas music?! It just isn't possible. Or at least I've never experienced it. "I'll be home for Christmas" is playing on my radio and I'm enjoying a cup of hot cocoa. God certainly shines down on people if you only open your eyes.
I'm gonna go running tonight...7 miles baby and I'm looking forward to being out in the crisp air. Sorry about the serious post! I thought it was needed.