My long weekend

WHAT A WEEKEND! So, I worked for 12 hours yesturday and then today I worked again and then played in a recital. I was about to lose it tonight. It is all over with now. I'm so thankful. As for my playing tonight, ah....it was ok. Not the best but not the worst. It was very strange. I've realized that I need to hold my head up high, no matter what situation I encounter. And I did exactly that tonight. You know, being on stage is truly the best feeling in the world. Ever since I was little, I loved getting all dolled up and be a little show off. I haven't changed much. I felt kinda uneasy today though. I think it was because I was fucking hung over. So, I couldn't eat anything really before work and I was too aggitated after work to eat anything because I was nervous. SHoot....I probably shouldn't have worn the high cut skirt now that i think about it, because when my shoulder rest fell off, I dont know if I flashed the audience....shit! LMAO I guess I can really entertain! haha. But it was nice to just be on stage again. It felt good knowing that I could do virtually anything I wanted with it...the audience was mine to capture. It is a control thing I think. It's kinda funny. My cello friend said that I had a "stage presence." It kinda made me a little embarrassed. He said that when I walk out on a stage, it is like bam (he does this funny stance). I couldn't resist not writing about that one. haha So, I'm determined to play a hell of a lot more. I really need to do many more solo gigs to just be comfortable enough not to mess up when those "oh boy" spots come up. My sound is definately coming along though. The instrument still kinda sucks, but I don't have 10k to invest. I was a little surprised by the program tonight. My piece seemed to be the only one that was tonal. The composer sure has some interesting ideas on quartet playing though...haha he put a string quartet against this recorded techno beat thing. Ever seen the SNL skit where those two guys bob their heads to the beat?...shoot i cant remember the names. oh man, I couldn't help but smile to myself and try to restrain myself from doing this bobbing head thing myself. It was cool though. It was a good night. So, I am overtired. I suppose I will go to bed since my 730 construction guys alarm clock will be going off soon. Too bad it is just them working on the building next door. ;)