Angels
Angels. I often wonder if there is such a thing. I've heard stories about people appearing out of no where and then disappearing. Unexplained things... People being cured of incurable diseases, dying and coming back, etc. On several occasions, I have experienced unusual events. Things that don't make sense. Being at the right place at the right time. Making snap decisions that change my life entirely. Does the dream world have anything to do with all of this?
It is definitely a complicated subject. Movies have been made about it, religions are based upon it. There have been numerous times when I knew I wouldn't be able to pay my bills. Something ALWAYS managed to work out. And last Tuesday, I knew my Mother wasn't going to die. Why? I can't explain. I knew it wasn't my decision and that I had no control over it. However, at the time, I knew she would not leave yet. Is that strange? I was upset at the moment and I cried, but I didn't cry because I felt like she would die. I remember hugging my Mom's good friend, standing there watching it all unfold... I remember thinking, this is happening, and I will let God decide what will happen... I have no control at this moment but maybe if I believe that she won't give up, she won't. I prayed for her guardian angel. Most of the time, I don't say actual prayers, in fact I rarely do. It isn't because I don't believe. In fact, I am a very strong believer. Things happen for a reason. When it is our time to go, there is no question, we will go. So why was I not as upset at that very moment? Those moments when time was of the essence... 6-7 minutes of no oxygen can mean brain damage... But why did I feel like she would pull through? Was it hope? At that moment I KNEW she would not die.
This brings me to a very strong belief of mine: Mind over Body. I believe that the mind can work miracles and our bodies are just how we function and live day to day. My Grandmother is a good example. She has survived over 4 different kinds of cancers. She has never once thought that she would not survive... It was just something else to talk about. Now I'm not trying to say that many who have died don't believe in this, maybe they have. I'm just simply saying that it can make a difference in your health. My Mother is yet another example. Today her face lit up when the Chaplin came into her room and began to talk. The church and God give my Mom hope. You can see it in her face. Then Father Jovy from the hospital walked in. She spoke like she had never been sick a day in her life. Her face was beaming and it was almost as if she could get out of the bed at that very moment. My grandmother noticed this and said the same thing to me, before I had even mentioned it to her.
Angels... We spoke about angels today. I believe we all have a guardian angel. There is this prayer that is said to have the guardian angel watch over you. I said that prayer at my mother's bedside and a man appeared who said he was a doctor. Just some random guy who came into the room and I never saw him leave. He just vanished. This is unexplained. I have thought about this and thought about this. How did I not see this man leave? I noticed everyone else. Four paramedic, two nurses, one LVN, a physical therapist looking in, two people watching all of the commotion. I swear that I noticed everyone and I knew when they left. I was very aware of everything. Yet this doctor who appeared and helped breathe life back into my mother just vanished? Even my mothers friends said the exact same thing. Could it be that I asked for her guardian angel and it appeared? We will never know. My mother tells everyone that person had to have been an angel... She felt a strange tugging at her toe. Someone holding on. Who knows...
Life is weird. Mind over body...
I had an important dream last night. I've been trying to think of it all day. But, I've only recovered slight images and feelings. I wish I would remember my dreams lately. I would hope they would give me more insight as to what is going on up there in my brain.
I don't know what to believe... Are there really angels? Do our dreams really give us insight into our future and past? Can this other world really exist and is it all a part of the "master plan?" I know one thing, Everything happens for a reason. Everything.
It is definitely a complicated subject. Movies have been made about it, religions are based upon it. There have been numerous times when I knew I wouldn't be able to pay my bills. Something ALWAYS managed to work out. And last Tuesday, I knew my Mother wasn't going to die. Why? I can't explain. I knew it wasn't my decision and that I had no control over it. However, at the time, I knew she would not leave yet. Is that strange? I was upset at the moment and I cried, but I didn't cry because I felt like she would die. I remember hugging my Mom's good friend, standing there watching it all unfold... I remember thinking, this is happening, and I will let God decide what will happen... I have no control at this moment but maybe if I believe that she won't give up, she won't. I prayed for her guardian angel. Most of the time, I don't say actual prayers, in fact I rarely do. It isn't because I don't believe. In fact, I am a very strong believer. Things happen for a reason. When it is our time to go, there is no question, we will go. So why was I not as upset at that very moment? Those moments when time was of the essence... 6-7 minutes of no oxygen can mean brain damage... But why did I feel like she would pull through? Was it hope? At that moment I KNEW she would not die.
This brings me to a very strong belief of mine: Mind over Body. I believe that the mind can work miracles and our bodies are just how we function and live day to day. My Grandmother is a good example. She has survived over 4 different kinds of cancers. She has never once thought that she would not survive... It was just something else to talk about. Now I'm not trying to say that many who have died don't believe in this, maybe they have. I'm just simply saying that it can make a difference in your health. My Mother is yet another example. Today her face lit up when the Chaplin came into her room and began to talk. The church and God give my Mom hope. You can see it in her face. Then Father Jovy from the hospital walked in. She spoke like she had never been sick a day in her life. Her face was beaming and it was almost as if she could get out of the bed at that very moment. My grandmother noticed this and said the same thing to me, before I had even mentioned it to her.
Angels... We spoke about angels today. I believe we all have a guardian angel. There is this prayer that is said to have the guardian angel watch over you. I said that prayer at my mother's bedside and a man appeared who said he was a doctor. Just some random guy who came into the room and I never saw him leave. He just vanished. This is unexplained. I have thought about this and thought about this. How did I not see this man leave? I noticed everyone else. Four paramedic, two nurses, one LVN, a physical therapist looking in, two people watching all of the commotion. I swear that I noticed everyone and I knew when they left. I was very aware of everything. Yet this doctor who appeared and helped breathe life back into my mother just vanished? Even my mothers friends said the exact same thing. Could it be that I asked for her guardian angel and it appeared? We will never know. My mother tells everyone that person had to have been an angel... She felt a strange tugging at her toe. Someone holding on. Who knows...
Life is weird. Mind over body...
I had an important dream last night. I've been trying to think of it all day. But, I've only recovered slight images and feelings. I wish I would remember my dreams lately. I would hope they would give me more insight as to what is going on up there in my brain.
I don't know what to believe... Are there really angels? Do our dreams really give us insight into our future and past? Can this other world really exist and is it all a part of the "master plan?" I know one thing, Everything happens for a reason. Everything.
posted by Jenn & John at 2:10 AM
2 Comments:
I took therapy sessions once with this counselor after I had lost my trombone chops... she specialized in working with musicians, and she used hypnotherapy, and quite a few other techniques. I wish I could've delved more into the stuff... but, the point is... we talked about dreams. When you wake up in the morning, when you're freshly awake, if you right it down... just the simple act of writing down what hapened, you will remember more of your dreams. THen, you can sit there and try and analyze your dreams.. and that is where the fun begins...
I have see some pretty strange things.. and experienced things that people would say I'm an idiot to belive in. A very dear friend of mine tells me that the things that I've experienced are much more likely the fact that I worked hard at something, put myself in the right place, at the right time for something to happen. It's a completely valid explanation.. but doesn't it take so much of the Romance out of it? And I'm not just talking about relationships.. I mean, the Romance of many things...
Anyway... food for thought.. time to sleep...
AS
That is a simple explaination. However, I believe there is something greater. Some great force that causes these things to happen. It certainly does take the "romance" out of it by saying it that way. But there have been more unexplained things that have happened to others. Things that cannot be simplified to "being at the right place at the right time."
Do we chalk it all up to this simple statement? Or is there something greater? The idea of taking the "romance" out of it doesn't explain it any better. It is still the unknown. I guess we will believe what we want, but being at the right place, at the right time only explains part of it. There is always something that goes unanswered, so why not believe in this greater force?
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