I'm SO Happy!!!!!!

Maybe it is because I'm the happiest drunk alive, or maybe it is because Life is good! Ok Ok, i had a few drinks tonight. But not thta many! My friend and i finished off a bottle of riesling (a common dessert wine) after going wine tasting. Wow. I must say. I am a pretty big fan of wine tasting. I prefer a nice glass of pinot grigio. That must be my favorite wine. It has the best taste to me. Although, I am a fan of the Shiraz, it doesn't compare to the pinot grigio.....yum yum. So yes, I am completely drunk while typing this. Hehe, it is nice. I had such a great night. I started off in a bad mood. I don't know why either....hmmm, fuck being a woman! Ok, then i cheered up, that could have been thanks to my caffeine fix later in the night! I'm sooooooooooooo addicted to coke....yes coca cola, not coke. Maybe that is my big problem in life, I depend too much on other things....like coke to keep me going. Hmm, I don't know what the hell im talking about because it is 2 in themorning and im drunk. So, my thoughts are all scattered. One thing I have come to the conclusion of is that life keeps going even when you are unhappy, so why not be happpy? it is a conscious discion...fuck i can't remember how to spell that....oh well.....I had a few unhappy thoughts, but mainly because I love people so much that i give of myself way too much. The point is.............shit.........i can't remmeber

Well, I tried many wines tonight.....hmmmmmmmm, I think it was like 7 wines and then finihed off the night with a nice bottle of the riesling that i had bought a while back...nice sweet dessert wine. Ok, maybe a little too much wine, but it is good for the heart right? So i've heard, but I dont thinnk they are talking about anything more than 5 glasses....oh shit, i've had more than that? ok maybe...but that isn't the point...

Ok, one thought for the night....I've come to the conclusion that life is too short to hold anger towards anyone. Some times life goes in different directions and it forces you to realize things. No matter how much a person has hurt me, I have always and will always have a place for them. I guess I'm talking about my past relationship in this respect because I was so caught up in the relationship that i forgot about me! Well, I haven't anymore! I'm so happy to have finally figured out...ok yes, im drunk, but im can still figure these things out.....that I'm very motivated.....in music and in life..and yes, in men still. I can't wait until I can play and sing for all of u!!!! and whatever may be along the way ;).....oh happy day! I'm happy....or maybe im giddy...and no it isn't because I'm a happy drunk, its because LIFE IS FUCKING GOOD! hehe

im going to bed now. im sure no one wants to read about my drunken thoughts.........shit, im always so fucking honest. But when am i not anyway??? I guess i jsut keep it to myself a little more. ok....night night time.